Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Mood Swings SUCK!

Ugh this pregnancy has been one big mood swing the whole time. Plus to think it could only get worse, wonderful. Pat has been very supportive most of the time, he is a man and they can only comprehend so much of this pregnancy crap that we all go through. Ya know I really wish someone would come up with a drug that a man could take for like a week or something, and it would make him feel pregnant. Bloated, mood swings, swollen feet, back ache, morning sickness, constipation, and anything else that I'm forgetting right now, oh ya pregnancy brain. Maybe strap a little bump thing to him that kicks him in the bladder all day long as well. Then on top of everything else make him go to work, or take care of the kids, the house and everything else all while he feels like crap.
Like I said Pat does a pretty good job but every now and then I just want to ring his neck, and I'm sure that's mostly due to hormones going crazy in my body right now.
As most know I have battled depression for years, this pregnancy like my last two I'm not taking any medication for the depression. Looking back on my first two pregnancies I'm sure I was depressed and that was a lot of my mood problems. This time knowing that the depression is there does not seem to be making it easier or harder to deal with. I truly feel that my depression has been getting worse over the last few years, why I'm not sure but I would like to know. Maybe once this baby is born I can start to find that out. Right now I don't think that would be a good idea. Who knows I might not be able to find out after the baby is born either since I will be nursing and who knows what they will want me to do, try, or go through. I can deal with it while I"m pregnant and I can take medication while I'm nursing to help me get through it. Once the baby has weaned off of the breast then I can buckle down and try and get to the bottom of everything.
I will also have to go into it knowing I might not find any answer or an answer that I'm looking for.
So if you are a spouse significant other of someone who is pregnant know there is a light at the end of the crazy tunnel. But also know that the light might not be what you want it to be. Just be there for her, and take care of her. Remember she is growing a human right there in front of you.

House work is never done

No matter how much you clean it's never clean. If you have kids or animals you will understand and relate to this.
I can have my bedroom completely clean and everything put away and sure enough what happens, the kids come in and start pulling clothes out of the closet, or the dog jumps on the bed and messes up the nicely made bed.
Dishes; I can have every single dish in the house washed, dried, and put away. Then one of the kids will want a drink or a snack or I will be hungry or thirsty. Then look you have another dirty dish.
Laundry oh the lovely laundry. I really can't say I have had ALL the laundry in the house done at once. With two kids, one on the way, husband, a dog, plus myself, towels and extra items like that, the laundry is always there no matter what.
With the fall and winter months coming I know that my floors will never stay clean for more then five minuets as well. Weather it's the dog coming in with wet muddy feet, kids forgetting to take their shoes off, my husband who forgets to take his muddy boots off outside. The floor is a total loss.
So one may wonder why bother to clean in the first place. Well it's something that just has to be done. If we did not clean we would smell bad, look bad, and no one would want to be around us. If you don't do the never ending laundry then at some point your clothes will stand up on their own. If you don't do the dishes then you will get mold on them and you can get sick. If you don't clean the floors you could step on something that can hurt you because it was not cleaned up the right way.
So yes cleaning is a never ending battle for anyone, but for a mom it's a never end job/battle what ever you want to call it. It's just part of being mom.