Thursday, May 7, 2009

Hurt Feelers

So I got my feelings hurt today, but I guess it was my own fault. I assumed something I should not have, well I tried really hard not to assume but my mind got the best of me. A good friend of mine, well I think she is a good friend, is getting married. Today I went with her to look at wedding dresses and I asked her if she has picked her bridesmaids yet. She named off four or five girls, me not being one of them. She was one of my bridesmaids in my wedding. She calls me for advice and to vent to me all the time. I was even going to front the money for a plane ticket for her once when her boyfriend was getting a little physical with her. But I guess I think of her as a better friend than she thinks of me. I knew I should not of assumed anything and I did. Well assume starts with ass, and that is what I am for assuming that. We have been friends since 6th grade, we cute our hair the same, dressed the same, painted our faces black and white for our softball games. But she became a party girl after high school, and a little in high school and I was a country girl. I knew we traveled in different circles but always thought we were like sisters at heart. I'm glad I can vent this hear and she will not read it. I don't want to make her sad or mad. It's her wedding and I will help her in any way that I can no matter what. It's her day, she is the queen for all of this. I will stand behind her 100% even if it's just as a friend sitting in a chair watching her walk down the isle.